alright, 2 days ago, it was finally between 2 apts. Whiteman st and then Flinders. Was really stressed up until today. sigh. didnt even sleep well last nte cos i was worrying about my brother and all. After what seemed like only 2 hours of sleep, my brother called me to discuss on the pros and cons of these 2 apts. Well. For whiteman st: $365/w +$99/ mth cleaning for 3 mths + tennis court + swimming pool + gym + carpark + whitegoods (fridge+ washing machine+ dryer+dishwasher) + bland coloured carpet + smaller rooms + 2 trams to swanston + move in right away.Flinders st: $350/w + no facilities + no white goods + cool bluish grey coloured carpet + brand new apt + 1 tram to swanston, nearer to city n Uni + ready only on 6th March.Well took me kinda long time to decide on FINALLY whiteman street; the price, the facilities, transport etc etc etc. even talked to my parents for quite some time and they also agreed on it. but hell things are just so GOing AGainST my will! Blamed it on my own reckless and indecisive actually. should have answered Yonas's call yesterday night. I thought he was calling me to tell me that i Got whiteman st approved. and if i do, i really dont know how to reject that offer and decided to leave it till this morning to allow me sometime to think about which one i actually want between the 2. So silly! SO he was actually telling me that He cant have Mary's reference. and wanted me to rush her to call ihm or sth. even though Aug was right, that even if i have answered his call then (6pm) Mary would have already off her hp and wouldnt answered to him right away, so it doesnt matter anyways. BUT to think abt it. I could perhaps leave her SMS or email and make sure she does give him a reference once she wake up or sth. SIGH. how can I be SO DUMb! MARY WHY ArE YOU SO DAMn iRRITATing!!!!! wHY didnt U PICK the PHOne UP lASt eveNING!! SIGH. its cos of this pathetic call from her that cause me to lose that apt. someone else got this all ready and all and she got it first. BUT i know its also my fault. sigh. thats why i was so pissed about all these. I'll have to move my things out asap. then do steam cleaning, domestic wash and cut of bills etc before TUes. I cant wait to move to flinders! *crosses fingers* i really wish i can get this. its my last and only hope i guess. . . This evening aug drove us to Caravel Lane, my MOST WANTED apt to look at the previous tenants' furniture to buy from her. but it ended costing $1K for bed, $1K for couch and $500 for fridge. sigh.. far too ex! im so so so disappointed. Now that im ASSUMing i will get FLInders, I hav to look for washing machines, fridges etc... they have none there. i hope i get to move in really early. LIke 3rd MArch. Oh please! im counting on Rebekah's call this coming Monday. ITs soooo Killing me. Now that the night is here, i cant help but drift my mind to apts again. I know weekends i cant do anything. but i just felt so wrong.... Im back here since 15th and none is done. Apt not even confirmed, no furnitures. no nothing. and Uni is starting on MOnday. Im so so so doomed. I have even dragged dah with me.. i know he has been really nice, sending me ard all over the place... i guess without that lazy big pig i would have tired myself out. ^0*Honestly, im so so tired. But i have so many things to think about. Alot of things. the apt, the tute times, the bank, the furnitures.. i cant wait... but a good note, I WILL be holding up a HOuse waRming parTY! Im thinking of about 20 guests. which is possible really, but those driving might have a problem cos there is such a narrow lane outside the apt, kinda impossible to park. hehe.. hmm... should i cook? or should i do bbq? there is a bbq machine sold in Big W for $160? cheap eh. hehehehehe.... wahhhh.... new apt!!! im so excited actually. well if only the one with the spiral staircase has got walls on the 2nd wall for the 2nd bedroom. i dont mind applying for that one. its soooo coolllll... 2 floors! hehehehe.. sigh.. now im thinking .... MAYBE i shud get that one. let me ask rebekah tomorrow =D omg. i realize another new personality. (well not really, i know this part long time ago, that im soft hearted hohoho) BUT its just that its getting stronger and its bad =( These days (eversince i became 20) im getting so self conscious i guess. WEll, I find myself soooo lousy! i really am! cos im sooo indecisive! it shows SO MUCh because its so tough for me to make a decision. and now because of this flaw, its dragging my agony. im so stupid. i hate myself why cant i jsut decide fASt? u know like what people say, just DO what u want to do? i cant. i dont know. i always think of other factors. why do i have to think so much???? argh. going SO against my will.
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