These 2 days.. not productive at all! - i meant studying of course. SIgh..Apparently I do have endless worries.. had to book for my 21st bday venue soon. Wont have time to do any plannings anytime next week aniways. so here goes my list.... First it was deciding my birthday.dinner.party venue - Amello St Kilda Seabath restaurant. want something different and memorable, since this is my 21st~ and might be our last dinner.bday.treats (me being the youngest in the group =_=) and some form of celebration to all potential graduants - and.. a farewell to some whom might forgood this year.. really hate that fact. Second deciding the date - considering who ends exams when, who's leaving melbourne when and finally arrived at the tentatively ideal date - 22nd november. SADLy yes, nothing is happening on the day itself. how exciting. Third deciding the guests -who knows who? who must come along if i ask whom along? who did i miss out? should i even invite whom in the first place? should i hold 2 different days of dinner instead so the group is not to scattered? stress. Stared at the many many names i typed up fer what seemed like half a day - and decided - ok, cant make a solid decision. just sent to all potential guests and their bf/gfs and asked to RVSP. Ok.. its supposed to be something to look forward to. 21st. bleah. planning it sux. & its starting to get on my nerves. Right after i clicked on the "send" icon, i thought i could finally go back to my studying peacefully and little do i realize i have actually tons of other matters haunting me, especially during this less than 7 days worth of PRECIOUS mugging days... It was - the fact that I cannot get a ticket back to sg/indo in December. Diana says all flights in December are overbooked by 200 ppl! omg. So here i have to be proactive in making frequent calls to SQ; hopeful they will confirm the tickets one day. Then.. there's dah's future stay issues.. - Should he stay for my graduation, look for house together, move his tix from 29/11 to 11/01, find an ideal housemate? - very complicated; its all his problems, but inadvertently has been quite dependant to a large extent on my family's decision.. (And myself) which led to.. my brother's unknown barrier issues.. with dah.. I was taken aback, hearing his responses
but he's afterall like me, we have one thing or maybe two in common;'stubborn' and 'limited trust' Feel really sad because its coming from him.. maybe he is thinking for the future. maybe.. he plainly plans to hold eternal grudges with dah.. sigh. STRESS!THERE's ... MORE!- PR application. - Honours Application vs Work If i choose to work & not honours I cant go back for holidays, because that dangers my PR application processes.. whICH means im wasting my time thinking all the above. BUT the thought of full time Honours - dreadful. i feel so NOT graduating! but again, its for the best. for future. * SIGH * AND.. loads more.. cant think... 
* TIRED *
shAnz
4:02 AM
