e s o p h o r i a - it's all about how you perceive me.

I am tired and sad enough already.

I am never good enough, right?

shAnz
12:38 AM

At last I get a family reunion in a LOOONNG time,
though... its in Melbourne.

Papa doesnt need to go to work
Nor tennis
Nor temple sessions with his buddies
He surfed internet webbies with me together
And gave pep talks especially at this period when i needed the most

Mama doesnt need to go to work
In FACT,
She irons, does laundries and dishes, cooks, changed bedsheets
Prepares breakfast and tidies the house.
SHe even mentioned to want to vacuum the carpets =_=''

OMG IM IN HeAVEN!

Hahah…
May not symbolize anything to many, but to me, its something
I have not experienced in a long time.

Really happy, very.

This morning, I woke up with a heavy head,
Alarm clock says 1020am.
6 hours of sleep.. nt bad.. hahA...
I suppose that compensates for the hard long day i had
the day before then.

but soon after distracted by Angel's heavy breathings
and "ai ni tai duo" from one side of the earphone. oops.
yah i fell asleep yesterday with my ipod runnin.. heheh..
ok not exactly worth mentioning,
though i was tired,
Very tired,
I couldn't go to sleep..
so needed some distractions because I had too many things
going on up in my head last night. . . .

****
Angel's such an irresistible cute babe.
last night whilst packing my stuff
advance preparation for movin out @ the end of the year,
i told my mom im so stressed out we got so much stuff in da houz

Angel bluntly replied,
"I got something for you if you are stressed,"
Then she suddenly sang one of her many childrens' songs...
*shakes head*
believe it or not, my stress indeed was gone that instant.

When she finally woke up, minutes later,
She mumbled sth like she wanted to pee.. so
I accompanied her to the toilet,

her butt is so small i was afraid she will fall in to the bowl
when she turned ard
to grab tissue paper.. lol..

then we brushed teeth together! >.<>

superrrr cute. cant stop smilin =p

****
It's time to wake up because time waits for no one.

****

Angel came in to my room n wanted to chat
So since there is no one she knows on my msn list,
I told her to type anything she wanted here in my blog..

i love you cici shanti

i love you mum , dad , you , andri and putri

cici shanti i miss you very much

i love you missssssss you

i want's call you in my HEART

i love you

shAnz
2:52 PM

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down on your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you,

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try

to fix you.

[Coldplay, Fix You]

shAnz
3:22 AM