e s o p h o r i a - it's all about how you perceive me.

Happy New Year ~~ ! ! !

Everything went really smoothly for me . . . .
Finally had whole family reunion dinner - w/o sis tho
Finally had massage session
Finally had proper dinner in Sg..

Had one of the front row seats on plane..
The weird girl who sat one seat away WHO talked to her video game
left me with another guy
so i had the whole ROW for myself.

I did had the chance to stretch out my legs but
because im short it doesnt really matter cos i didnt even cover up two seats.
it was comfy but i felt uncomfy deep inside

Didnt sleep throughout the flight..
well..
almost did. but this air stewardess woke me up to ask if i wanna eat.
i shaked my head
she nodded and then sticked some note on top of my seat
which i realized later on
it says something like
: "SHh! do not disturb passenger"
.......... lol tts cute.

but i already got woken up,
couldnt sleep after.
so i stayed awake throughout,
browsing Kris magz, and
clicking on that remote for like thousand times
for nice movies..
BUT there's none!
ok ther was,
departed, guardian, monster houz, step up..
n i watched them all before
that was it.!
the rest . . . its either i havent heard before
or .. ok . no OR. they all are bad.

OH can u imagine! THEY dont even have FRIENDS on commedy channel!
AND they printed on the magz
New Year - 80 MOVIES showing. - crap.
ITS NEW YEAR!
1st JAN 2007! No nice movies!? No nice song clips too! and no commedies!

haha..
ok.. pardon me.. i sound ridiculous.
IM practically venting my frustration on the silly mini tv..
=_=
so pathetic.
well thats because, that was my only hope to cheer me up
on my way back here to melbourne.

and its ruined. ok not really.
i watched StepUp all over again though.
Watched it on my way back to sg last xmas..
i love their dance steps.. =p

well ok soon after, at about 5-6am Mel time
when i looked outa the window
i noticed blue - yellowish streaks on the horizon
never seen such beautiful sun rise before..
ive seen the sky turned pink-orangy-purplish during sunset
but never have i noticed
such a perfect contrast..
i wish i could take a picture right then..
all i remember was.. it was pitch dark,
with distant bluish smear followed by bright green and
golden yellow. . . maybe a tinge of baby pink along with that
pretty.

and no, i wasnt dreaming.
haha..

so things went really good afterall..
yet im not happy..
in fact
i feel sad
full of regrets, regrets for many things i didnt do
during my 10 days holiday. . .
loneliness filled me as the cooling brezzy melbourne air greeted me..

whilst in the taxi..
movin through all the familiar tolls and freeways..
the conventional hook turns..
the almost perfect city apartments..
it made me wonder
how come it seemed i just left this place yesterday

this all happen so soon..
i havent met most of my friends like i promised to
i havent baked any cakes!
i havent met Mr Soon - oh no..
i forgot to collect my BONDS >.<
i havent told anyone what i really want to say
oh i havent done so many things . . .

Ive been on the plane for 4 times on and off within 10 days
Been to the airport 9 times this month.
Can I go on another trip?
=(

shAnz
2:44 PM